8/17/14

Lately I have had no interest in checking my blog or getting on my computer. It’s boring and too time consuming, but here I am writing a new post on it anyways. 

So school is coming up, and luckily my family vacation is the week before school starts. Which means I’m going to the beach next week. I wish we could leave now. This is going to be a long week. Also, on Tuesday I have to go to my school orientation and for some reason the teachers requested that the parents not be there. I find that so weird.

I hope all of you had a great weekend 

stay positive

 

 

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There will always be someone in my life who….

Living, Breathing, and Surviving, and Coping with Mental Illness

There will always be someone in my life who ___________.

  • loves me.
  • dislikes me.
  • perhaps even “hates” me.
  • cares about me.
  • brings me down.
  • irritates me.
  • frustrates me.
  • makes me angry.
  • picks up the pieces.
  • makes me laugh.
  • makes me smile.
  • gives me a hug.
  • makes me cry.
  • cries with me.
  • hurts me.
  • pushes me away.
  • leaves me.
  • scares me.
  • believes in me.
  • understands me.
  • ignores me.
  • makes me a better person.
  • will stab me in the back.
  • will talk about me behind my back.
  • can find something negative to say about me.
  • will say something positive about me – and mean it – because it’s true!
  • give’s a damn about me!
  • makes me think.

—-Makes me think and realize that there will always be someone in my life who is negative and for every negative person there is a positive person.  No, not everyone hates me — as the…

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happy happy happy because friday

yesterday, my mom asked me to pull the weeds out of the garden in the front yard. so I went outside with my sister and we started ripping them up, and I spotted the mailman walking down the street. I immediately got extremely nervous because I knew I’d have to talk to her. for about 20 minutes I kept looking over my shoulder because I was so nervous that I had to talk to her.

I have been told by many of my old therapists that I have really bad social anxiety. even my current therapist and psychologist told me I do. I really hope that I can overcome my anxiety before school starts, or at least be able to control it really well. I want to do great in school. I’m going to get all A’s & run track. I’m worried that I’ll let my anxiety get the best of me and I’ll back out at the last second, but I really want to play a sport. I’m positive that track is the one for me. I have long legs and lots of endurance. all that I have to do is run a lot!

I’m starting at a new school this year, and I’m not nervous one bit. I’ve transferred schools about 4 or 5 times & it always starts off bad then gets better. I’m prepared for anything, I think.

For the next 3-4 weeks til school starts, I’m going to run as much as I can because I wanna be the best at what I do. I really hope I can achieve my goals! I believe that I will.

hope all of you have a wonderful Friday & a fantastic weekend☻

psych appointment & other useless things

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for some reason, last night i decided i wasn’t going to take my medicine because i’ve been having dreams every night and it feels like when i dream, i don’t sleep hardly at all.

when i woke up this morning, I was in the worst mood ever. I felt achy everywhere, i had a huge headache, and i was being really rude for no reason. I also couldn’t stop shaking & all I wanted to do was cry. I was so exhausted. the worst part is, even though i didn’t take my medicine, I still had dreams! it’s ridiculous.

I saw my new psychologist yesterday and from the looks of it, I will be on medication for awhile. i’m now well aware of the symptoms when i don’t take my medicine.

I went frisbee golfing today for the first time in years and I couldn’t even enjoy it because i was in such a bad mood☹

I hope I feel much better tomorrow

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Hi everyone

As everybody knows it’s tax free weekend, which means school shopping. I was aware that I would have to get bigger sized clothes because of my weight gain but I didn’t think it would be too drastic. I was terrified of not being a 0 anymore, and I wasn’t even close to that.

The worst thing about recovering from an ED is the weight gain. I’ve gained about 20-25 pounds in the past few months and I absolutely hate it. I hate shopping for myself now, and I can’t blame anybody else because it’s my entire fault. I started a horrible habit and ruined the way I see and dress myself.

For all of you who don’t like the way you look, exercise. Get up and do something physical. I still hate myself for starting the habit, because I still think about. Shopping leaves me in grief, but thankfully I have my mom to just do it for me.

I hope you’re all having a great weekend 🙂